February 24, 2010
Maybe it was because I grew up with a disabled sister, and it hurt me more and more the older I got to see people make fun of her, or inform me on the playground that "I had a retarded sister." And even though that was when I was about six years old, it ended up hurting me so bad. That's my sister. She's a person, too. At six years old I didn't even know what that meant..."retarded"...I told my mom what the kids on the playground said and asked her what that meant. The next day the girl that said it probably didn't even realize what she said, but it's stuck with me for 15 years.
In middle school, I ended up avoiding the pool for an entire summer simply because a boy pointed out that one of my toes was longer than another one and "that meant I'm a lesbian."
These things are stupid, yes. And I shouldn't take them seriously, but I simply can't help it. It's just the type of person I am.
I've gotten better and learned who to trust and not to; but there are times even now that words still hurt.
I promise to continue to try and not let people's words control me.
February 18, 2010
I'm not tired.
For some reason, I am reverting back to childhood.
As a child I sometimes would wake up in the middle of the night unable to fall back asleep. My solution? Go to the living room, drink a glass of orange juice and sit contently in the dark watching King Kong, a favorite of mine as a child.
Here I am, twenty years later...sitting in the dark living room, on my couch, drinking a glass of orange juice watching Johnny Weir figure skate.
Reminds me of being a kid again. I like it.
1) Set foot on every continent
North America (My whole life)
2) South America
Asia (May 2008)
2) Visit the Wonders of the World
1) Chichen Itza, Mexico
2) Christ Redeemer, Brazil
3) Colosseum, Italy
4) Taj Mahal, India
Great Wall of China (May 2008)
6) Petra, Jordan
7) Machu Picchu, Peru
3) Visit all 50 states (
Alabama, Alaska, Arizona, Arkansas, California, Colorado, Connecticut, Delaware, DC, Florida, Georgia, Hawaii, Idaho, Illinois, Indiana, Iowa, Kansas, Kentucky, Louisiana, Maine, Maryland, Massachusetts, Michigan, Minnesota, Mississippi, Missouri, Montana, Nebraska, Nevada, New Hampshire, New Jersey, New Mexico, New York, North Carolina, North Dakota, Ohio, Oklahoma, Oregon, Pennsylvania, Rhode Island, South Carolina, South Dakota, Tennessee, Texas, Utah, Vermont, Virginia, Washington, West Virginia, Wisconsin, Wyoming)
4) Ride in a hot air balloon
) Rock out at a rock concert (11.10.09)
6) New Year’s Eve at Time’s Square
7) Swim in
Atlantic and Pacific Ocean 8) Go shopping on Boxing Day in Canada (12/26/05)
9) Learn how to ballroom dance
10) Attend Carnival in Brazil
11) Learn to juggle
12) Ride an elephant (1997)
13) Surf (or attempt to)
14) Stay up all night to watch the sunrise.
15) Attend the Olympics
16) Host a tea party
17) Participate in a huge food fight
18) Fall in love
19) Attend a red carpet event ((I was soooo close))
20) Ride a rollercoaster (12.27.08)
21) Kiss in the rain
22) Go skinny dipping
23) Meet Conan O’Brien
24) Send a message in a bottle
25) Hit a hole in one
26) Learn how to play the guitar
27) Learn to bartend (2006)
28) Join the Mile High Club
29) Write and send a hand written love letter
30) Learn how to drive a stick shift
31) Meet my favorite singer, Michael Bublé
32) Be serenaded to spontaneously.
33) Sing karaoke enthusiastically (2006)
34) Go on a major road trip
35) Get my picture taken in a photo booth
36) Ride in a helicopter (1999)
37) Own one item from a famous designer
38) Swim with the dolphins
39) Learn how to fire a gun
40) See a tornado
41) Get married
42) Have children
43) Be hypnotized
44) Ride in a taxi
45) Go to
Disneyworld and Disneyland (June 1992, July 2003, March 2009)
46) Attend a Broadway show.
47) Lick the Liberty Bell, (or other historical thing)
48) Visit a castle
49) Sleep under the stars
50) Go camping
51) Fly first class
52) Go ice skating (2003, 2008)
53) Go to a drive in movie
54) See the Northern Lights
55) Watch a space launch (2003) 56) Go to a Frat party
57) Serenade someone
58) Ride in a limo
59) Kiss under the mistletoe
60) Be backstage for a concert
61) Mud wrestle
62) Ride on a motorcycle
63) Learn how to dive
64) Color every page of a coloring book
65) Try sushi
66) Be an extra in a movie
67) Go white water rafting
68) Sing to a live audience
69) Plant a tree
70) Ride a segway
71) Make-out in a library
Kiss a [male] stripper (12.26.09)
Take a midnight train going anywhere (May 2008)
74) Fly first class
75) Attend a masquerade
76) Go to a midnight showing of Rocky Horror Picture Show and do all the actions
77) Receive flowers for no reason. [Okay, so maybe there was a reason :) ]
78) Get a degree
79) Go to Europe and have a fling with a hunky European
80) Create my own constellation, and find it on other starry nights (I named it Pete; 2007)
81) Ignore guilt and do what I want
82) Make an article of clothing (be it knitting a scarf, etc.)
83) Feel like the most beautiful girl in the room
84) Learn to not say “yes” when I really want to say “no”
85) Ride a gondola in Venice
86) Own a little black dress
87) Go sailing
88) Spend all day in a bookstore
89) Hold a tarantula
90) Be in the audience of a Saturday Night Live recording
91) Hug a panda
92) Get tickets to the gun show
93) Go to a movie alone, and not feel weird
94) Participate in a 5K.
95) Change a tire
96) Spend the day at the spa
97) Ride in a horse drawn carriage
98) Ride the London Eye
100) Do something totally rebellious
February 17, 2010
My parents divorced when I was in 5th grade. Ever since then my mom and I have talked about love, relationships and marriage. I think it then started when I was growing up and observing my mom reconnect with her college sweetheart. A grown woman acting giddy every time the phone rang. Sending and receiving love notes in the mail. Baking and sending goodies. And eventually marrying him. Now after almost eight years of marriage, they still acting like newlyweds.
I have found love. And no not the kind of love you have when you find someone has chapstick that you have needed for an hour. Or when you’ve gone from place to place looking for a certain item and you find it at the fifth and last place. For the first time in my life, I am in love.
The reason I know this is because I’ve never felt this way before.
And it’s amazing.
I haven’t been able to find a guy quite like Devon. And I’m so lucky I have found him. Most guys out there are jerks and not pleasant to be around. I’m certainly glad that I have met Devon. He has stolen my heart and here's how.
Be honest and open with me. I’m a very open person and I hate secrets. And I will share just about anything with you and I’m comfortable with that. Tell me what you really think. I’ll listen.
Trust. Self explanatory. Goes hand in hand with the above.
Laugh with me. I love to laugh!! Devon has a wonderful sense of humor. A dry, witty one at that. He never fails at making me laugh. And I love that about him.
Music. Music has been and always will be a big part of my life. I love to sing. And so does Devon. He has a great voice and ability to play guitar (and ukulele).I love being able to share this love with someone that loves it just as much as I do. I have always dreamed of being serenaded to spontaneously. You know, like the movies?! How romantic. Even more romantic would be a song written just for me.
Put up with me. Sure I’m a little weird. A little silly. A little unorganized. Maybe I don’t wear makeup or do my hair some days. But he still looks past that and still puts up with me and loves me for me.
It’s the little things that count. It’s the random text messages saying “I love you” or the flowers on our monthly anniversary. It’s the randomly doing the dishes. These are the things that make my heart melt. I adore them.
Hold my hand. This is my favorite part of every car ride I go on with Devon. Whether it’s just a drive across town. Or a journey up to Sioux Falls.
I’m sure his love for the color green, love for puppies, or the fact that he rides a motorcycle had a little to do with it as well. ;)
Like I said before. I’m a simple girl and it doesn’t take much to win my heart…I’ve just never found someone that was able to before…until now. <3
I love you, Devon!
Facebook started making small changes like taking the "is" out of the status bar. Then they changed completely. I got used to it.
Then came the applications. Bumper Stickers. Farmville. Mafia Wars. And invitation after invitation for joining pointless groups (the new craze). Ever since the addition of the "chat" at the bottom, forget about Facebook working normal for you. It's become a hassle. Facebook doesn't work for me over half the time. The primary reason I keep my Facebook is because it acts as a photo album and to keep in touch with some friends out of town. Of course, I check it every day...because old habits die hard.
I'm a simple girl that needs a simple social networking site.
I've met someone new.