Breaking the Habit

Everyone has habits. Hair twirling. Knuckle cracking. Nail biting. 

In my case, it's nail biting. It's horrible. I know. But I've had this habit for as long as I can remember. I don't know if it's from stress. Or worrying too much. Or both. Or what? But it's horrible and bad and I hate it! And I have always wanted to stop. But I've never had the will or motivation to do it. I end up worrying more...it's a vicious cycle. 

I've always wanted to get my nails professionally done, but I am WAY too embarrassed to actually go in and do it. This summer I decided to try the cheap-o fake nails from the dollar store. And they actually looked okay. So for the past six months or so I would wear them for special events or just for fun off and on.

I wore them last week and when I took them off, I noticed my nail had turned green. GREEN. What the hey? After doing some research, I discovered it was because it had gotten wet underneath the fake nail and a bacteria had started to form. I guess it's common for people that wear the cheap-o fake nails. But it seriously freaked me out. I mean, I love the color green. But it was just weird. And not normal.

At this point I decided that I was going to make a true effort to try and NOT bite my nails. I need to break the habit and start to not feel so self conscious about something as stupid as my hands. The human hand is probably my favorite body part. They are so fascinating. Call me weird, but it is the first thing I notice about a person. Weird? Probably. Who cares.

I also decided I needed to quit this habit when Devon mentioned something that made a lot of sense. For the past year or two I have had issues with my jaw locking (TMJ). One of his fraternity brothers is studying to be a physical therapist, so when Devon mentioned something to him about my TMJ he mentioned something about pressure on the front of the teeth being bad and I should exercise the muscles in the back. Maybe my TMJ flares up because I bite my nails. I mean it does happen when I am stressed or worried. 

Love, Peace, & Feeling Good. 

Reflection

So I am in bed tossing and turning and trying to sleep and I just can't. So, I decided to get out my [new] computer and just reflect on the past week or so.

Like I said. I have a new computer in my possession. Devon got a new fancy tablet, so I bought his Macbook Pro from him. My old computer was close to being a piece of junk anyway and I have been wanting to get a Mac for some time. Boy, I have a great boyfriend.

School has been...okay I suppose. I am already very overwhelmed with my classes and just everything. I am just NOT really appreciating it. But...what do ya do? I'm set to graduate so I may as well just suck up these next 100 days.

Yes. I said 100 days. Can you believe it?

Ridiculous. I just hope it hurries up. I am ready to be done.

As of tonight I am all caught up on homework...other than a few minor things for my advertising class. But that's something that I can wait until this weekend to do.

This past weekend was nice. Devon surprised me with a visit (through that terrible blizzard and everything!!) He made it to Vermillion safe and sound. It was a pretty low key weekend. We went to the wellness center on Saturday. That was actually a lot more fun than I had anticipated. I certainly wish he was here permanently so I had a workout buddy! I really need to start getting into a routine of working out though. It felt good.

I also met up with one of my best friends for his 21st birthday. It was fun to see him and just hang out for a while. It was a very memorable night. Drumroll please.........I pet my very first pug. It's true. His name was Dirt. How awesome is that? Check that off the bucket list!

So, what's up with this weather lately? It does nothing for months then all of a sudden in one weekend the skies open up it's freezing crap? What gives? I just hope it all melts away fast. I was getting used to the nice weather.

Love, Peace, & Stress...

Last Semester Ever...?

So it's true. I am officially graduating this spring. May 5. That's in 110 days for those of you that aren't counting. I am. But that's besides the point.

As mentioned in previous posts, I'm so ready to be done with school. But at the same time absolutely terrified for what the future may hold. I'm getting excited about the idea of moving to a new place and meeting new people and all that jazz. But terrified to just make that step. That's just who I am. Take it or leave it.

Until I get to that point, I have to complete this last semester of classes. Last semester I added Advertising as a specialization along with Public Relations. I only needed the one class, so why not?

My semester consists of a healthy amount of advertising and public relations classes including my capstone class to complete my major, a little bit of acting and film to complete my minor, a dose of a pointless cross disciplinary class to complete my gen eds and a dash of choir to make me complete again.

Last week was our first day of classes. I only had my Thursday classes, since I don't have classes on Fridays this semester. This meant I had all of my classes but one.

I started out with my cross disciplinary class....the dreaded and soon-to-be-dead XDIS. This is the class that they've been trying to get rid of since I got to USD. This is the last semester it is being offered and I need it to graduate...otherwise I would not be taking it this semester. From what I have gathered it's pretty much like a debate class. I hate debating. Bah. I get to class and of all people who decides to sit in front of me? Devon's ex-girlfriend. It's not that big of a deal...but we all know "that" feeling...It's just awkward. Let's just hope that we don't get assigned the same group...otherwise it will be a long and awkward semester.

My Ad Copy & Layout class wasn't too bad. I sat next to some people I knew and we grouped up into an "agency" that we'll be with for the rest of the semester. Our client is the flower shop. I think I will be enjoying this class!

My Acting class wasn't too bad either. I think I will enjoy it. I miss the theatre and acting and I hope this will fill my need until someday when I can be involved in a community theatre. The same goes for my choir I'm in.

And finally was my Digital Filmmaking class. My brother is in it with me so that'll be fun. And it's a way  for me to be creative. I just need to find those creative ideas.

This is going to be a time consuming semester. I just hope it goes by fast. In this semester I still need to complete a senior portfolio and apply to jobs (and get accepted). I have applied to a few and have already gotten "Sorry...we're not interested letters." I can just imagine there will be many more of those. But I just need to find the right jobs and get applying.

Here's to the last semester of USD ever!

Love, Peace, & Counting Down.